Bangalore Boom

You know that feeling when you're livin life and you realize that you're living what you've dreamt about? The feeling that catches you at those rare moments when a memory comes adrift as you're cleaning up the room you lived in years ago? That's what life has been like for me in Bangalore. In so many ways, while I've been here, it seems to me like "This is my life." I almost forget that I'm married, I have a man named Samir and that I live elsewhere and live a totally different kind of life. Well, no, I don't forget but life here has caught me in an alien vortex and sometimes I just feel like I'm a different person. Chetan is the only tie that links me to my "other" life. I almost feel like I'm a single, independent woman. Since being here I've been able to drive a car, go to town, wear modern clothing, speak English, buy whatever I want, make my own decisions, have free time, enjoy amazing weather day in and day out, have been free from household responsibilities and the mundane chore of deciding what to cook everyday, been able to watch TV, spend quality time with my parents, most especially with my brother- um... need I go on?

I just feel thoroughly blessed and thoroughly alive. Every moment I want to take it captive and hold it dear. All this is not to say that my life with Samir is drab and lifeless. That it is definitely not. I have a different kind of life in Unnao and I do realize more and more that my life there, my life with Samir is my Life. I miss Samir a whole lot. Gosh, I don't feel complete, there's always the feeling of something missing. And I know eventually that that life, the life where I am constrained and where I face harsh weather is the life I choose. Because it's the life I have with Samir.

But in the meanwhile I mean to enjoy this Break in my life with the people who are more precious to me than words can express. My family.