MY Priority and what I am learning about God

I think that one way Satan's been attacking me lately is by making me feel that because I'm a stay at home mom, I'm not as good as the mom's who are working or who are earning degrees. I very often feel like I'm behind others, that the world is moving on and I'm left with nothing great to show for it. So, because I listened to this lie, last week I frantically searched for schools where I could do my B.Ed. I searched a lot and the Lord closed each and every door. For all distance learning degrees, you must be an in-service teacher. Hello! How can I leave my child, go get a job in a school and then study in the evenings for my B.Ed? Impossible! No, it's possible but at the cost of neglecting my child, my husband, my self and my house.

I read today that we as mom's need to reserve our time for the best things, not the good things. It may be good for me to get my B.Ed. but it is best for me to stay at home for my child.

Over our weekend in Allahabad, I was reminded by God and my friend Delicia that my most important priority in this season of my life is Chetan. The most important things right now are to teach him, deal with his naughtiness, give him attention and shower him with love. What a gift God has given me! Here is a poem that really touched my heart by Doran Richards. It reminds me of how important my Little Sunshine is:

Gift from God

I give thanks to You alone
Who sits on the throne
To loan me this precious gift
And to call it my own.

May I always see, Lord
In every waking hour,
Your majesty and grace
In this delicate flower.

Help me, O God,
To guide and preserve,
This wonderful blessing,
To love and to serve.

To move on, Chetan has been getting very scared lately of fire crackers. I'm noticing that whenever he gets scared, he runs and clings to me. He actually has perfect faith that his mommy will protect him and won't let any harm come to him. If a child can have such faith in a weak, imperfect being, how much faith should we have when it comes to our perfect God. Not only is He God, but He has proven himself to be trustworthy over and over again. Why not cling to him when worry and shadows come in life? Why not cling to him as a child clings to his mother? Why not have faith just like a child? After all, we have a perfect God!