See you at the TOP

I've been doing a lot of thinking in my life. Since I naturally tend to think negatively, my reflections ended up showing me that my life thus far has not amounted to much. Don't get me wrong. I know I have amounted to something but I tend to reflect on all the down sides, all the decisions made wrong, all the people I hurt or manipulated, all the embarrassments, pride issues, control issues, selfish issues, all the words that hurt people, on and on it goes. And to add to this pity party, I was thinking that I haven't done anything significant so far for another human being and for India- which is the reason I came back by the way! I've been in India for almost 5 years now and what have I got to show for it. I feel like I'm living for myself with no goals, no aspirations, not motivated, not inspired, lacking creativity.

Then....

I've been reading Zig Zigler's book, "See you at the Top", and it has really made me think seriously about where I'm going and what I want to do with my life. A lot of the problem lies in my thinking. My thoughts run around the line of 'I can't do this, I have no time, I have no energy, I have no time.' Yet there are a lot of things that I want to do, alot of dreams that I want to come true. I want to mobilize my inward capabilities and not be witheld from doing things because of my limitations. The next post with show some practical ways I plan to do this.

By the way, I am really working on not talking of others. And God is really helping me.

Please Pray.